Black Screen

I keep wanting to text him, but for some reason I don't.

I keep wanting to hear his voice, but I can't bring myself to make the call.

I keep imagining him in my mind, yet for some reason I don't seek him out. 

He's so close. Right there,yet

I don't call

I don't text

I don't go

My mind, body and soul crave for him, want him, need him.

But today's a day of sadness, a day of tears, numbness, nothingness

There's no reason to bring this upon him.

It's better to just be alone.

Still, I want to see him.

I want to embrace him.

I want to let go of this sadness inside me.

Yet all I do is gaze at my phone in longing, wishing, wanting, hoping.

I can't text with my mind though.

He can't read mine.

So my phone will continue to stay idle.