Thursday, October 29, 2015

Just a dream

    It's dark, so dark... Why is it so dark?! I shout in my mind while I struggle and run, but from what, I really don't know. Finally after what seemed like an eternity plus one I see light and I push my body to it's limits. I need to get out, but where am I? Finally I run out of what seemed to be a never ending tunnel and collapse to the ground, trying to catch my breath. I know I'm not safe yet, but I just need a moment to catch my breath and then I'll continue moving forward.
    After a few minutes I stand to continue and I find a giant field before me. I turn to look for whatever is chasing me, but find the tunnel gone and I am in the middle of a grassy meadow. Naturally I find myself relaxing forgetting about the chase, forgetting about the thing chasing me, just for a few moments forgetting about everything. I prance through the field touching the long grass and smelling the flowers.
    Suddenly I find a camera in my hands, so naturally I start taking pictures of the nature around me. Oddly enough I hear nothing but the wind and see only vegetation, that is until I happen upon a snake bathing in the sun. A simple grass snake, who pays me no mind while I snap a quick picture of him and carry on. I'm not afraid per se of snakes, but they do intimidate me a bit. I continue along snapping pictures and enjoying the sun on my face.
    Oddly enough the only animals I find in the field are snakes and before long I find myself surround by hundreds of them. All different shapes and sizes, colors and species. It terrifies me as I watch them all slowly come closer. I try my hardest not to scream when they start to climb on to my body. It feels as if they are chaining me to the ground as they wrap themselves around my limbs. I understand why when I see a huge dark and tall shadow falling over me and I know that the thing that was chasing me earlier is back.
    As soon as this dawns on me I'm quickly struggling my way out of my sheets and find myself face-planting into the hardwood floor. It takes a couple of seconds for me to get my barrings, remind myself that, that was just a dream, I'm home and there are no snakes in the building (maybe). I shakily stand on me feet and make my way towards the bathroom, jumping slightly at any shadow that looks too snake like, god I'm such a coward. Once there I splash some water on my face and drink a bit from the faucet. I relax myself, allowing the coolness of the porcelain sink to remind me that, that was just a dream. Just a dream.
    I make my way back to the bedroom and curl up next the warmth on the bed, burying my face in his back, thankful for his presence, as it helps ground me in this strange world. It takes a matter of second for me to fall back into a dreamless sleep.
    When I awaken I find myself wrapped in his arms and unlike the snakes I feel safe and happy. I lay there for a few moments, enjoying the closeness that we rarely and yet constantly share. This is something I'm going to draw later, I think. Finally I sigh and slip myself out of his arms and out of the warm, comfy bed.
     It's only 9:30 I notice looking at the kitchen clock, so he'll be asleep for a while more. With that I decide to make my delicious, black, dark roast coffee and grab my sketch book while I wait for the water to boil. Once my coffee is done I cuddle the cup to my chest and try to absorb its heat, it's a cool autumn morning. Realizing the cup isn't supplying me with enough heat I grabbed a blanket and start sketching. I take my time drawing out a rough draft and then trying to make humanoid things come from it.
    I easily loose myself in the drawing and I'm only shaken out of my zen like state when he slides in next to me under the blanket and gives me a kiss to the cheek. For some reason this always makes my stomach flutter a bit. I'm handed a fresh cup of coffee, while he has some tea and we continue this relaxing silence. He, just as much as I, needs some time to wake up in the morning. Let's just say we aren't really morning people. So we just sit next to each other, enjoying the warmth between us and the peace.
    He eventually puts his head on my shoulder and watches me sketch. After a while I notice he's fallen back asleep, so I take the now cold tea out of his hands and place it on the table, careful so as not to disturb him. I glance at my drawing and see that it's finished, I look to the clock and see it's 11:23 and finally I look at Aster's sleeping form. A small smile naturally falls onto my face and I place a light kiss to his lips, before turning back to my sketchbook and starting a new drawing.
It's Sunday there's no reason to leave the house today anyway.